I learned to Embrace my Invisibility. Then you came and Saw me.

Yeah, I know I broke my song lyric chain, but that works perfectly for this. And I might use it in one of my songs. So shut up. It counts.

I've been feeling slightly (...ok, a little more than slightly) ignored lately. I'll be talking to one person, and another person will be there and the first person will say off and then the other person will say something, and then they'll walk off and my previous role in the "conversation" is pretty much forgotten. I'm like a medium; conversations pass through me. I can name at least twice this week when that's happened, but I will not go into detail about that unless you ask.
Almost all of my friends have done this at one point or another (some less than others, some WAY less than others), and I guess I've just kinda learned to accept it. But it still hurts and bothers me that I don't seem to be good enough to talk to for some people who dare call themselves friends of mine.

Seriously, why?
Why am I such a wuss? Why is *insert [you all know what] name here* so...so...great? He's the only freakin person I can think of over the age of 11 that I talk to on a regular basis who's never done this to me before (family included), and that's really sad. If anyone tries to talk to him while he's talking to me, he'll kinda acknowledge them, and talks to them a LITTLE if and only if that's what it takes to make them shut up/go away, and then he'll start talking to me again. He even noticed when we sat at his lunch table today, dammit. He looked up at me and he smiled and waved. He's sweet...
It's sweet-Acknowldegement. Value.

Became as Mad as rabbits

Dylan, Stephen, and I went to Falls Park and filmed our music video for "Lost!" by Coldplay [but before, we met at Stephen's house and got cake =D]. On Valentine's Day. It was weird to walk around the park and be practically the only single person there.
We saw these three teenagers and the 1 guy with them was smoking and being totally insane. After we thought they left we started filming [I was singing] and I heard one of the girls from [apparently] above us say "She's good!" Bleh. Then they showed up later when we were outside Starbucks and the guy failed miserably at trying to show us "screamo", and proceeded to shout "I'm high, Jesus Christ!!" as they all walked away.
Then there was this second group of teenagers who wanted to watch Stephen and I "argue", but we ended up moving. When I was getting my jacket [Dylan and Stephen were standing a few yards from me] one of the girls said to me "Hey, tell your friend I'll give him a hand job if [can't remember]!" I don't know which friend she was talking about, nor do I WANT to. I was creeped out, so I just kinda walked off [and never mentioned that again until now].
I don't think our video's gonna turn out so great. We had a bunch of stuff in mind that we couldn't do because of our time/location, and Dylan was apparently on a timer [was being picked up at 6:15] so we had even LESS time, and all three of us never got to Stephen's house, so I never got to record on his Mac and may end up with male vocals in the video! I ended up walking back with just Stephen. And my mom drove passed us right as we were crossing the street to get on the road that goes to his house [talk about perfect timing XD] so I went home from there.
Yeah, interesting day...

Working at a 9-5 pace

Job Shadowing is tomorrow...
Let me just express how stupid I think it is that people want us to decide what we're going to do with our lives when we're in the freaking eighth grade!
Seriously. This is like the dumbest thing since vertical helicopter ejector seats.
...Ok, maybe not. But in my opinion, it's a freakin close second.
My way of rebelling against it: I'm job shadowing my mom even though I don't have any interest whatsoever in what she does and I'm going to play on my computer and read all day. She'll give me good reviews because she loves me ^^

...I hope...

On the plus side, I'm getting out of school for a day!
Although I have to leave home at 7:15 and won't get home till after school, so I might as well be there anyway.

My paper Heart will Bleed

I just realized something about Valentine's Day.
It screws you either way.
If you're single, you don't have anyone to celebrate/share it with.
If you're in a relationship, you have to get something for your bf/gf.
Which is worse? You decide~

I wanna Break every clock, the hands of time could Never move again...

I used to think that I didn't want to leave my current school because of the school itself.
Wrong.
I hate this school. But I love the people in it unconditionally.
I'm stuck.
I don't want to stay here, but I'm afraid of high school.
I guess this is what happens when you stay in the same place with the same people for six years of your life; you get attached.
My friend and I came up with a solution.
You've heard the saying "forever and a day", right?
Here's our solution: summer forever, and a big party with everyone at CTC on that final day.

HEY YOU

Hi.